It’s been said that “Logic will break your heart”. Moods come and go. So do opinions. If I had a nickle and dime I would have 15 cents. And that has made all the difference.
Steven Morrissey once sang:
“Dallow, Spicer, Pinkie, Cubitt
Every jammy Stressford poet
Loafing oafs in all-night chemists
Loafing oafs in all-night chemists
Underact - express depression
Ah, but Bunnie I loved you
I was tired again
I’ve tried again, and
Now my heart is full
Now my heart is full
And I just can’t explain
So I won’t even try to ”
And with such charm too.
Today at work I found a “worker” hiding in the tool trailer. I hope I never am that lazy. I would much rather die from working to hard than be the kind of person that hides from work. It’s louder than bombs in my head. What’s with the Smiths reference? seemed to fit.
My computer is really in a condition. Isn’t it a something? This thing of it? I suppose to must be a virus. I need to get a bigger hard drive and just reinstall xp. I gotta find my install disk and the money for a hard drive to do that. In other words, don’t expect more pictures to be up any time soon. How have they been working though? Sorry the old gallery is still not working. Maybe I’ll get a brain one day and figure it out. I can’t even seem to figure out social ethics though. Complicated things, those meddling kids. The good news is I purchased deoderant tonight. The bad news is I can’t remember where I put it. Good night.
Mentally, 7 was my favorite age. I really enjoyed it. How old are you? How long have you been that age? Mentally. Shallow thoughts from KM to follow.
What is more important, most of the people you know, or each person you know? Can you see my point? In the past few days, since my returning from road trip, I have had the feeling that I can’t breath. Strange. I don’t think it is very serious. A friend mentioned anxiety as a possible contributor. I can agree with that. Today at work, I seemed to not be able to stop shaking. At least in the morning. I believe a lack of vitamins was the culprit. If I do not take care of myself I am really a fool.
In the next four years, the majority of those I associate with regularly, will not be my regular associates. (That sentence was incredibly wordy.) Things change. People age. I have. I hope I do not or have not left a negative thought in anyones mind. I sincerely apologize if I have. I was wrong.
On the subject of what is in the water, I say this “Blame yourself, until it is no longer and option.”
I am glad that someone had the idea to put the rough spots on the shoulder of interstates. They saved my life this weekend. Thrice. Never underestimate the power of threats you have no intention of ever carrying out. In the right place at the right time, they fit like a glove. But not according to those who are on the receiving end. They still get mad at you for threatening them. Please be assured I am not speaking about threats concerning violence. More like threats to go home. Or quit a job. Be careful not to have your bluff called. TESTPLUG knows about that.
I leave for GA on Tuesday. Exciting. Very very very exciting. I think I just wet myself a little bit. Excuse me.
I find it difficult to keep track of where I stand while I am moving. As I set goals and try to plan when and where I will be when I reach them, I find this in my case; along the way, there is the everpresent unexpected. I suppose that is why so many people trip while walking. At a minimum it does keep things intresting. Have you ever been on your way to fetch something and due to some unrelated concern in your mind, find yourself standing wondering what you went to fetch? I had such an experience today. I went to the tool trailer at work to get a box of bits for the drill. Having finished my thought, I was then standing in the trailer without any idea why I was there. Shortly I did recall the reason. I find such things amusing. What though, if that happened while I was persuing something more important? Something much more consequential than bits for a drill. I suppose that is a concern for everyone. I doubt I would find such to be amusing. Especially if it hindered me. Let’s say for example, I was in a trade school. Learning a trade so I could settle down and be able to support a family. My goal was to have this all done by some particular time and then get married. Along the way I happend to become enthusastic about cars. I buy an older car and start working to restore it. I spend spare time working on the car, reading about it, thinking about what I will do with it when it’s done, how fun it will be to drive and so on. A period of time passes and I decide to start looking for a marriage mate. I also decide the trade I was in school for is not right for me. I change majors to something to do with automobiles. Another period of time passes. I still have the original plans to be done with school and get married. Only the getting married is still on track. School has been pushed back by my change of majors. I am going to stop sharing my thoughts on this subject here. I Stand.
Looks like I am going to be moving out of my house in August of ‘05. I wonder if I’m ready. I wonder if wherever I end up living is ready for me to live there. This weekend I will drive my dear friends up to live with their daughter in Maryland. I am told the trip is 14 hours long. I intend to spend Saturday in service even though I will not have had much sleep. Speaking of service, the trip up to GA seems to be coming up rather quickly. As is the start of a new assignment. I feel as though I can really feel for the first time in many times.
As if.
When you have had your privledge of using the household washer and dryer suspended there must be a better way. A tell tale sign of desperation and the wits end is an uncalled for and unexpected extreme. Often the one taking such action is even surprised by their doing so. “Marriage is for crazy people. Why? Because marriage is an institution and institutions are for crazy people.” Connect those dots if you dare.
I apologize for the Photo-Project being down. I have been working on it but haven’t made much progress. I may have to find another way of posting pictures. Sorry. I’m just not very smart. It’s been a problem for a long time.
Perhaps it’s as Steven Morrissey said “You just haven’t earned it yet baby.” Here is something I set up for now
BNB site is progressing well though. Slow, but steady.
I added a much needed link to the media section of my site. It is above on the nav menu.
I always get such a good kick out of the conversations I have. I guess not always. Sometimes I just get bored with them. I did get a kick out of the ones I had or heard today/tonight.
I went over to Jonathan M.’s house to watch some movies. Had a nice time doing that. What people will say unwittingly in large groups always makes me laugh though. It seemed that the later it got the more times I almost made people mad at me for what I said. I wasn’t even talking much either. Other people were having an even worse time keeping themselves out of trouble. Time after time, I heard “What is that supposed to mean?” I also got made fun of for not being a compulsive hugger. I didn’t expect that. Oh well.
On a lighter note, I suspect Sister Pual of scheming to set me up when I drive her to Maryland in a few weeks. I anticipate a painful experience. Emotionaly speaking. Haha, me, show emotion. OK I’ll stop kidding now.
We did have some nice snacks tonight. Yummy. Good company too.
Speaking of good company, how have you been?
Goodnight.
It has been a while since I’ve been able to post. My host changed servers so I have been held back by the usual technical problems that occur during migrations. OR perhaps I have just slacked off. You decide.
Well not a lot of tremendous things have been happening. Yet, I have had a full weekend. I must say I’ve been feeling very drained lately. I am hesitant to draw conclusions as to why. But I am sure it will pass in due time.
It is my sincere hope that this post, albeit lengthy, will serve as an outlet to my feeling a lack of real motivation.
I had a very enjoyable time at Erin’s graduation party last night (Sunday the 3rd of April). LOTS OF DANCING! I was not in very good form. I had fun though. I wore a bow tie. That was different. The dress code called for black and white attire and most if not all cooperated. So everyone looked very well color cordinated. Really gave the party a “hipper than thou” feel. Jonathan C. wore some mirror lens aviators which gave him an edge during “I wear sunglass at night”. I will post the sixty or so pictures I took. But I will have to get my gallery program running on this server first. I haven’t had much success with it of late.
I also have a number of pictures from the most recent Jam Session. It was pretty good. A nice time of music and conversation. There was a smidgen of dancing there also. Not nearly as much as at Erin’s party though. My legs are still sore.
Commenting on the new blog interface I’m using I say “I really like it.”
I haven’t finished the theme yet but I did enough done to give out the url.
-where i had typed something and then thought better of it-
Alright enough of that. I was quite alarmed by the whole thing. I never thought I would ever be shot with a gun I gave to someone as a kind gesture of conversation. Alas, respect is neigh these days.
Finally. My family just finished watching tv. For the last few hours I have had this incredible distracting noise from the tv in the background. Making it impossible for my to enjoy my rambling. I feel bad about what I wrote above so I will go back and edit it out and just say that the bnb site will be fixed in a week or so.
I believe I have a sinus infection. Gross.
Well I’m done venting my emptiness. Take care. or don’t care. whichever. I’m not your boss.
Thrying to see how stuff will look on the site just checking it all out you know how it geso when you don’t have an actual post to make but need content lorem ipsum or something latin like that.
And Again. There we have it.
