Breaking into a new job. I really wonder if that is even possible for myself. At times I seem to demonstrate the capability to learn things and even do well at them. However, I run into a large amount of frustration with my utter lack of follow through on such so called potential. Today was a prime example. I awoke after fully exhausting my ability to sleep. So one would think I’d be really ready for a mental challenge having sufficiently achieved REM and cycled all the way into Delta sleep. My dreams were vivid. Excellent I thought, now I’m ready to write that cover letter and tweak my resume in hopes of getting an interview. HA! Little did I remember that I don’t follow through. After staring at my cover letter for 4 hours and writing and deleting the first paragraph about 15 times, I decided I could better spend my time actually coding a site. So I began working on a site. After I got so frustrated with my attempts at inserting a random header image with php, something I had previously achieved in another site, I began working on something more static. After fighting for a few hours with my side bar and content position I finally got them to display almost like the design called for. That would feel like an accomplishment, except that I had previously learned how to do that very same thing some 3 or 4 times. But, I forgot. GREAT!
It seems that Thursday is Kevin’s day to go insane. Yep, once again this afternoon I felt insane. Genuinely crazy. That’s fantastic. You know, the other night, two separate people came up to me and let me know they ran into one of my brothers. One had seen him in jail. The other, had seem him in a fire station just after he had been let out of jail. That’s great. I can’t wait for my turn. I’m gonna have to figure something out for Thursdays, because I can’t take this going crazy business. It’s too tempting.
“like drinking poison, like eating glass, it’s so cold in this house”
So I want to learn to illustrate using vector graphics. Inkscape is a Open Source SVG program that I started using. It’s still very much in the development stages, but I am so far impressed with what it does have to offer. Primarily the fact that it’s FREE. But I’ve got further left to go, and hopefully it wont take forever.
I was hoping around ebay this morning pricing out ‘damaged’ Macbooks. That was entertaining.
Got turned down for an auto loan. It’s probably for the best.
The sons of Issachar, don’t mess with them.
The word ‘lad’ is going to be added to my active vocabulary.
I am privileged to have some really amazing people as friends.
CODE CODE CODE… DESIGN DESIGN DESIGN… CODE CODE CODE…
Have you ever felt as if you are consciously choosing to stay sane? I felt like that yesterday. That is, in my book, a development that should be documented. I feel such would be very helpful if I ever made the alternate decision. Pray the future doth not merit such measures.
I think reading is one of the healthiest things I can do. In particul-ARE, as Tavis Smiley would say, with regard to my mental health. I am also convinced that I need to get things out of my head whether by writing them, painting them, building them, photographing them or some other creative expression. It seems over the course of a few weeks without creative expression my mind becomes so muddled up I cannot find a sufficient focus or be content with what I find to occupy my time, no matter how important the current task might be, I feel an overwhelming need to do ’something’ else. There is likely some more trite way to describe that while being all that much more authoritative. I guess that’ll be progress when I find it.
I started the planning stage of KevinNMurphy.com v1.5 PRO. That is what I’m calling the redesign of my professional web identity. I’m also currently working on a redesign for ‘Couple Grammes of Soma’ which I have now given the moniker ‘Kevin N. Murphy at his Leisure’. That will be my more personal blog. I’m currently in the planning stage of ‘ThomasMooreMusic.net’. Bear in mind that when I say ‘planning’ I mean the setting up of the technical stuff, virtual servers, DNS administration, domain registration, WP2.1 installs, and then realizing that it helps to have a plan before trying to code or design stuff. I’ll learn this trade somehow, even if it is the hard way.
She gave orders… she gave orders… to spill my blood I thought
