For a little bit now I had forgotten some guiding viewpoints I previously had a very strong grip on.
I’ve listen to a few extremely effective explanations of how to handle the negative thoughts that face everyone. It’s so simple. Not easy, but simple.
I was looking at some old pictures from 2000 a friend of mine posted to Flickr and I was reminded how rich my past is with awesome people. And how rich the present is. I usually scoff at gurus and their positive attitude, because I’m fairly cynical for humors sake. However, I am genuinely happy. It’s totally up to me.
It’s pretty easy to look at stuff you have no control over and become frustrated with it. Instead of doing that I’ve decided I’m going to love that stuff. So my relationship failed, big deal, I’m better off. That’s the truth. It’s awesome actually. Sure at first it’s shockingly not what the goal was. But once the dust settles and I look back at the time I spent, and the way I conducted myself, the way I set priorities, the way I followed through and showed up even when it wasn’t fair and when it wasn’t sane or rational to do that, how I showed up at times I knew other people wouldn’t of, What do I have to feel bad about? Nothing. I kept my word. I’m not the liar, I’m not the one who gave up, I’m not the quitter. And that is awesome to have lived that, rather than just say I can.
Once I realized this, it just gets better every day. Sure there are always things you don’t expect in life. I didn’t expect to be alive at my age. But I am and that’s great and I’m gonna help people and do awesome stuff.
With jaded eyes and features, you think I really care? You better think about it baby, baby.
I’m switching this site to be django powered over the weekend. probably going to use byteflow as a start and then quickly hack it to an unrecognizable state :-)
I.M.A. Fever
Here is something I like:
I chopped down the house that you had been saving to live in next summer.
I am sorry, but it was morning, and I had nothing to do
and its wooden beams were so inviting.
-Kenneth Koch
The rains are a welcome addition to any afternoon of mine. Post-heavy downpour dawn is one thing that is really awesome in FL.
There were times. I have them now, in my pocket with the stones that you left by the window, the ones you gathered. I wont keep them. Because you are too heavy.
“I thought I’d recommend a book for you to read, and if you don’t want to then MAYBE I”LL READ IT MYSELF!” messages from tampa wake me. Who’s calls are you avoiding today?
I see people I knew from my more tender years. Their eyes are afraid, like children.
I. M. A. Fever.
So I’m visiting Seattle WA this week. So far my trip has been just great.
I had the chance to visit the nice little neighborhood called Fremont and visit the troll under the Fremont Bridge AKA suicide bridge. Pretty cool place.
Being that I’ve recently been freed of strings attached I am seriously planning to move out this way. Might take more than a few months to make it happen, but I want to move on and this would be a very real and positive way to do that, since I actually wouldn’t mind staying here for a very long time. Although, to be honest, nothing compares to Costa Rica in my book.
Photography is becoming a favorite hobby for me. I still haven’t conquered my timidity for shooting portraits of strangers yet, but I think I’m getting better at spotting good shots as I walk around.
I visited the Seattle Central Public Library last night. Really the best Library I have ever seen. Amazing. I wish I had a child I could bring to the children’s section. Tons and tons of open space, desks, computers, light, beautiful natural light really just tremendously awesome building.
